im ill.

haha, well yeah, so i havent been going to school because im pretty sick! my moms so irritating. she wont stop calling me & im tryna get some rest so that i can feel better.

then when i told her my temperature she totally over reacted and made me go to the fucken hospital.

& it doesnt help that my brain was pounding
& i felt like shit & she was fucken yelling and swearing at me.

ugh, such a frustrating day.
well they did all kines of tests on me and it turns out that
i just have a cold. not even the flu or anything.
but, im not allowed to go back to school yet.

& now im so irritated by my brat brother.
stupid kid.
he needs to grow up & needs to be diciplined.

and now im logging off because i have to go watch him.

r.i.p.

wow, so much has happened lately. first of off id like to start off by saying Rest In Peace Dylan Alao.
i still cannot believe that youre gone. i hope youve finally reached that place of happiness that you were searching for all this time. even though we werent close and actually didnt hang out too much, im still gonna miss you soso much! you were a good guy who always meant well and tried your best to help everyone for their best interest. watch over us & we'll all meet again one day..


this situation really taught me that people really can be taken at any time and that you really shouldnt take anyone or anything for granted. i think this was one of the most life changing things thats happened that really opened my eyes to reality. i saw him on tuesday & he was gone by sunday.. not even a week later. i think everyone should learn from this because you learn that life really is too short for anything that can bring you down, for anything that just isnt worth your time. be happy, enjoy your life, live it to the fullest, seriously. rest in peace, dylan.

to all my family & friends, and just everyone, dont ever leave me like that okay? i dont know what id do without all the people that i have in my life.



alright, well my life other than all of that has been suuuper goood! aha. like really good haha. its kinda weird. im almost always in a good mood now & theres nothing bad going on. schools still a drag & im not doing too good..

work this weekend.. ugh, starting to get sick of this. nah, i wouldnt care if i had to work during the week instead of the weekend. buuut, nah, im satisfied i guess.
gotta make money, right? haha.

well not going to school tomorrow to try and get a state id haha. then liquor license & drivers permit lol. so much to do! better get started haha.

off to do my pages and pages of hmwk. bye!

xoxo,
marissa

finally!

omg, i couldnt remember my email or password this whole time so i couldnt do this blog lol

but finally, i remembered (:

anyways, ugh we start school tomorrow :| that sucks sooo bad, fuurels. i hate school so much.
spring break was pretty fucken shitty though. i was in vegas for like 5 days so i didnt get to hang out with friends, came back on a monday afternoon, got grounded wednesday morning >:| so that sucks suuuper bad.
so sorry everyone! i havent done anything for almost a week. b
en locked up in the house, ugh.
i got the "marissa where the hell are you? you went mia this week!" from at least 10 people.
but i get to see everyone in school starting tomorrow! (:
im dreading having to go back, seriously.
and im so scared to get bad grades cuhz that aint mee but this quarter was just like the hardest one so far.

anyways, enough about schoool.
im finally "home" and bored as usual.
my phone broke.
i went to yogurtland today! it was delicious (:
i made pretty good money at work on friday & saturday so im happy but then i spent alot of it already so blah.

anyways, im gonna go shower and try to sleep early cuhz i kno ima have a hard time waking up for school tomorrow. bye!

xoxo,
marissa (:

confuseddd!

omgosh, i posted 2 blogs this past week and i just realized that they arent up! rawr. oh well.

welllll, this week was soo tiring! lol. so much has happened lately.
i had to work on wednesday and it suucked! it was so damn boring because only like 10 tables came in all night! gaay. i falling so behind in school somehow! ugh. i hate school sososo much. i just wish id be done with it already. ah. on thursday i ended up not going to school because i was gonna be late so i went to ricks haha. i was so tired cuhz of work the night before. friday i stayed at ricks all night till like almost 12 and then kaipo took me to the bus stop cuhz rick & i were gonna go to shalanes house to sleep over and instead of catching the bus aunty kammie just picked us up. funn ass night! one that i'll prolly always remember lol. there were some downs, but for the most part, it was fun! haha. heres a picture from that night (:
anyways, the next morning i was supposed to go home early but it was pouring so i just stayed at shalanes till like 215 till my mom said i had to leave haha. motha, brotha, step fatha and i ate at zippys then went home. i showered and then had work rawr. i was so tired! but i made $57 tips so i was happy haha. didnt leave work till like 10 something then i went home, got ready, picked up rick and met up with tara, shalane, boyd, hakeem and kaika. pretty funny night. shalane cracks me up so bad lol. i wish emily's lame ass came! haha. it poured all night though! its a good thing that i brought my trusty umbrella haha. that saved my life. then we were walking back to ricks at like 2am and it was still pouring so my good friend, kbOne came and got us and took us to ricks. then ethan came outside cand we talked to him for a while. then the four of us went into ricks room and chilled. i was so dam tired, i went sleep haha.

we all woke up today so late. ate, went back to sleep. woke up, called emily, went back to sleep lol. then finally we all stayed up after like 1pm and then emily came to ricks. rick and emily gave ricks rabbit a bath lol. supposedly youre not supposed to do that haha. i brushed its hair after.

we were all so bored so nick, james, shalane and i tried playing leap frog haha. then nick and james were jumping over each other while they were standing straight up! damn, i wish i could do that. then we got the vaccums cord and shalane held one side and i held the other and rick, nick and james limbo-ed, jump roped, and jumped over that thing. they did good at all of that haha. it was pretty funny. then somehow the matress came out there and they started holding it up for each other while the other person kicked it lol. i tried to hold it but it was too hard haha. we didnt do much after that haha. then shalane and i decided that it would be smart if we went home because it was like 615pm. haha.

we were both expecting to get into trouble for being late but neither of us got into any. haha. i cant wait for spring break to start! im going to vegas from the 24th-31st. i think that was the dates. haha. idk. shalanes birthday is so soon! the 17th to be exact. we needa celebrate!

im tryna do hmwk right now that was due like two weeks ago so i needa get off of this shit lol. bye!

exhuasted!

hoooo shit man. i just got home from my first day of working! haha. daaamn. im exhuasted. i was all good until i finally got to sit down after like 5 hours. shit, thats when i realized how really tired i was lol. well at least im
a get to start making my own money (: i work again on wednesday though lol. idk how ima be able to do this. ima be so tired tomorrow, i prolly wont go to school lol.

catching uuup. my weekend -->
i pierced my nose! haha. kk, but on friday i watched my brotha all night from after i got home from school and then rick walked up to my house at like 930pm and we went to towncenter to meet shy and cindy. we sat under a fricken recylcling bin for a while, until we figrued out what we were gonna do lol. then we walked across the street and mikey saw us so he came to saw hi haha. we met up with cindy & shy's friends and went driving. we chilled at the top of ricks hill and then went to find a bathroom cuhz everyone had to pee haha. we fit 7 people in a so small car lol.

i had to wake up so early on saturday for christians stupid baseball game. ugh. i hate going to those things so much. slept through the majority of it though haha. when we got home christian was bothering everyone so the two of us caught the bus down to haliewa and ate lunch at stortos. yuuum! we saw sooo much chickens! haha. we tried to catch em too. they were so cuute, look!


then i got a new bowl! i was so happy. blessed it that night. that was fun. aha. slept over ricks again.

walked home the next morning and then had christians baseball game.. i really really hate baseball lol. aunty dawn and ashley came to it too! i slept through the whole thing as usual haha. until it started to rain! frick, that ruined things. then grandma came over and then we went to get rick and then grabbed food and then went to great grandmas house. that was pretty fun, we sang all night haha. i was exhausted.

today i went to school and did sooo good on my biology test lol. dont really remember much of the beginning of my day.. then after school i went straight home, hoping to be able to sleep but then i had to go to workkk. started at like 3 something, almost 4 and got off at like 9. friick, im so tired. so ima go sleep. niiight! (:

ouuch.

that huuuurt.
nah, whatevaa.
up until just now, today was suuuper good! haha. besides the fact that im getting a little sick lol.
buut, good news. no baseball tomorrow! wooo! haha. im so happy.
today school was such a drag but i cracked up in like, all of my classes lol. somehow someone in every class made it fun haha. omgahd, in 1st period we had a sub and he picked on me sooo much i got so fricken mad. whatevaa.
after school i got to get so much stuff from walmart with lauren lol. then we ate at chilis! yuuuum! our waitress liked us so much lol. we were practically talking story hahah. so gay. nah, i enjoyed our food. im still full! lol
im doing my spanish class right now and its irritating.
i lost my shirt today after i took it off. rawr. oh well. bye!

spiiiicy!

hahaha, i just had to make that my title for this blog cuhz i just laughed when i thought about it. only lauren, amanda and rick would understand what that means hahah.
well fuuuck man. i hate school sooo much! i had sosososo much biology homework! it was ridiculous. school went by sooo slowly and it was so fricken booring. at least i didnt have to go yesterday haha.
and at least today was wednesday so we got outta school early! wooo.
renzee gave me a ride home after school haha. hes a good driver actaully! then i met up with rick, justis, kusaka, shaynon, mikey b, and will sheets for a while haha.
then rick, justis, kusaka and i walked to towncenter and met up with shy. chilled by transit and got kicked outta there, then we went by chilis. and some fricken old man on a moped called security on us for no reason. gaaay. went to chill hill for a little while, then went to walmart. dowwn to ricks and ate pizzaaa! yuuum! went home, did the loads of homework, and didnt even finish half. i have a math test tomorrow and i have no idea what its on ugh. i hate school. i fricken bought my mom that "eclicse" book today and it was like 23 fucken dollars. ugh. waste of my money!
ima take some nyquil so my throat stops hurting and hopefully it'll put me to sleep. byeee!

yummy!

this weekend was so junk! my mom them made me stay in after friday night. ugh.i was soooo mad.

but thursday night was so fucken funny! justis, i will never forget what happened hahah. i saved your life maan! so much times too lol.
and friday night, damn, that was a lot of confusion and shit haha. and it was fricken cold. we went all the way to hawaii kai to go sit on the rocks above the water and froze to death lol. and it was a hike to get up and down there lol. i was so tired after.
saturday i got to eat dinner with my dad, anne, dillon, reece, aunty dawn, grandma and rick. we ate at camilia. it was delicious! i ate sososo much. like farel. then we went to ala moana and then when i got home i wanted to go out but nooo, i wasnt allowed to. so i just went to sleep. i was so irritated. same thing for saturday, i got so mad i just went in my room and slept lol. and my mom threw away my malasadas from great grandma miyachis house!



and right now im so tired so bye!

edit,

so that last blog says i wrote it on the 23rd when i clearly wrote it on the 22nd or i wouldnt have put "sweet sixteen" cuhz that aint my birthday no more haha.

anywaaays, today after school lauren and amanda came with me to my house so i could wash the dishes haha. then we walked to towncenter and i applied to baskin robins and jamba juice. cross your fingers! haha. i wore the shirt that rick got me today. then we went to walmart and then to starbucks to meet up with myles and dylan. happy international house of pancakes day! haha. dylan, myles, amanda, lauren and i ate at ihop because it was free pancakes day! haha. it was delicious. anyways it was so funny how at ihop lauren and i went to the bathroom together and since we went one at a time when it was her turn she made me turn on all the water, and scream while she sang and peed at the same time. hahaha i was laughing my ass off fareeels! lol and then she thought she was done but i guess there was one drop left so she was like, "wait, LAAAA!" hahahah, it was so fucken funny! then keldon or something came and then we all went to pearlridge. myles, dylan, amanda, lauren, me, matt, jojo and some other people haha. we went to go and visit ross and some other people. if im writing the wrong names, sorry! i just met them today hahah. lauren and i got ourselves some new makeup! lol im so happy haha. i got home late and mama wasnt happy. i was supposed to be home before 5 but didnt get home till like 8 haha. i hate school rawr.


----> im too lazy to put up all of the pictures from today, so here!
http://photobucket.com/asiannnns
laugh your asses off (:

sweet sixteen!

happy birthday to me!
haha, so today is my sixteenth birthday. im so happy! it was a pretty good day.
last night i got to hang out with jerwin, rick, justis, james and nick. i had fun for the most part except when i had to run haha. slept over ricks and woke up fricken early as shit this morning to watch christians stupid baseball game. laaame. went back to ricks and then my grandma picked us up to help her prepare stuff for my family dinner for my birthday. took a nap and headed off to great grandmas house in waipahu. rick & i cooked! haha. we made a barbeque and it was so fricken delicious lol. all though my family doesnt exchange birthday gifts anymore, everyone gave me something lol. thanks!
**thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday && special thanks to aunty dawn, grandma carol, ricktupua and cousin ish.
-aunty dawn, thanks for always understanding me and being there for me when i need help. youre the best! i love the hoodie, shorts and phone ya gave me for my birthday. thaaanks
-grandma carol, thanks for taking me around today, and for feeding me, and for the money & clothes. also for buying all my food and cake for my birthday dinner. i love ya!
-rick rick rick, i cannot believe ya bought me an ipod. i loooove it, farels. ye'kno ya didnt needa get me anything. singing happy birthday to me & a hug woulda been perfectly fine haha. but thank ya sososo much. i love ya boyeee.
-ishlaaay, youre so funny! thanks for singing for me! haha. youre so cute. i love my cousin!


anyways, yaaw. i had a good birthday thanks to the friends and family. i wish my dad were around for it though.

peeeace!

bleh.

sosososo irritated.
i was in a good week this whole week until tonight. even though she said i could go out, my mom said i cant go anywhere this weekend, at all. ugh.
at least im still getting my braces off tomorrow.
i hate school.
4 more weeks till spring break. i cant wait.
applying for a couple jobs on monday.
see ya.

getting closer,

to the weekend! i cant wait.
tomorrow is officially the last day that i'll have braces because i get them off on friday morning! im so fucken happy haha. then sundays my birthday. i hope its a good one!
i had "front bangs" today. not purposely though. i cut them really short the other day and then today they wouldnt go to the side. i was told i look 13. grr. ima be fucken 16 on sunday! whatevaaa.
i miss emily fagget. i baked brownies tonight! haha
i gotta do so much shit for school! fuuck.
whateva, i gotta pee. bye!

gayness.

so todays friday the 13th, but i doubt im gonna have bad luck because i usually have bad luck on thursday the 12th, and i didnt haha. but maybe my bad luck is that i cant go out tonight :( i gotta stay home because im grounded. ugh.

i get my braces off in a week from today! i cant wait, seriously. haha.

and then my birthday is in 9 days. then ima try and get a job after i turn 16. i just remembered that tomorrow is valentines day haha, and ima be stuck at home rawr. so gay. lauren made cupcakes today, and they were yummy haha. but the frosting looked like lipgloss.

hopefully i can go out and at least go see my grandma this weekend. i wanna change my hair again. i was so tempted to color it last night to light brown but then since its already been 4 months since the last time that i colored it, i should just keep the cycle going. im sick of having bangs though. they get in my way.

shitty!

so right now im like suuuper sick & i just cleaned and re arranged my room for the first time in months haha. im also grounded for getting into a car accident. chevis and i went driving with my moms car and ended up getting into an accident with this boy named sung ha. its a good thing he was really nice or id be in a lot more trouble than i already am. his car had minor damages, but ours, shit. haha. that happened on saturday night. honestly, i think this all coulda been prevented if mom just let me go out like i wanted to instead of forcing me to go to family's house and being bored & taking the car out. haha. well the insurance company said that its actually sung's fault but because that im underage & he didnt tell on me, were gonna pay for it.

school is sooooo gay! i hate it sosososo much. i wish shalane still came to mililani. itd be so much more fun. this past weekend was so gay, i still cant believe it. and right before my birthday! thats how its been every year since the 5th grade.. i get my braces off on the 20th! i cant wait (:

catching up.

maaan, this pass week has been so busy. haha.
i cant remember which day is which & which events go to what date haha.
so i'll just list what i did this week,
celebrated grandma carols birthday, went to christians baseball game, bought a hookah, hung out with so many people i never woulda imagined i would hang out with, threw up! uuuuugh, i'll never forget that. worst thing everrrr. slept over ricks from thursday till sunday. went driving! thanks kameron (: idk but its just been pretty fun for the past couple of weeks. today i helped shalane move some stuff into her new house. and right now i feel really sick so ima take some nyquil and go to sleep.
xoxo.

today,

was actually really good haha.
started off waking up at fricken 630 because i wanted to have time to get ready but i fell back asleep and didnt wake back up till like almost 730 haha. rick came over and then we went to school. that crazy shit with helicopters looking for some man happened in first period so we had a lock down. people were texting me saying they were triiippin because of it. haha. some teachers had the students sit under the desks with the windows and doors locked with the lights shut off haha. school was pretty gay though as usual. at least i got to go to both lunches and then at lunch kameron brought taco bell. haha. 6th period was funny because cindy & i were making pennies stand on its sides and the teacher was getting so mad because she kept dropping the coins because the girl that sits next to cindy just kept shaking the desks. haha. after school i went to towncenter and we hung out with ethans friends for a bit. theyre pretty cool. i got my mom to talk to my orthodontist to get my braces off 4 days sooner. haha. so they'll be off by the 20th! (: i cant wait! mama gave rick & i a ride home & then we chilled at my house. fell asleep at like 6-9 and now im awakeee. haha. gonna try to go to sleep in like an hour though so that i can wake up early tomorrow to meet up with amanda. haha.

yesterdayyyyy,
woke up & nick was trying to scare me by hitting a pot again but once again i woke up before he did it. haha. got picked up at like almost 11am and went home to get motha & brotha. went to eat at some chinese restaurant & then to christians baseball game. i dont know why they make me go to those things. theyre so boringgg. i slept through the whole thing lol. then after that we went home and got ready & went to have dinner with my moms mom, aka my "grandma." shes really nice. i wish she was around more though. overall, alright day. i think it woulda been better if i got to go out haha.

rawr.

last night was alright. did a real lot of walking and plans kept changing because it would get messed up. rick & i got to hang out with a bunch of people & then i slept over his house. woke up to nick banging a pot or something that fricken stupidass haha. i was supposed to go to christian's first baseball game but that didn't happen. i ended up just walking home because i needa congradulate my brother. supposed to go to pearlridge but i doubt ima go now. .

im so fucken irritated right now and i dont know how to deal with it. ah. todays gonna be the start of my new plans. im changing things a lot starting now, and it's gonna be for the better. i have the biggest feeling i'll regret it but maybe in the end, im doing the right thing. wish me luck.

hello starshine,

when i went to vegas & spent alot of money but didnt buy a whole lot like last time. it was fun though.

2009 has been pretty good so far. never really a dull moment haha.

well today was pretty gay. i hate school so much. its such a drag.
after school i was supposed to go to haleiwa but since the bus was so busy, we didnt go. ended up eating lunch at chili's with rick & then went home. got pretty irritated at home. then i tried to develop my pictures for photography and it aint gonna be ready till tomorrow. rawr. im so behind in school now. shit, when i was to towncenter i heard someone call my name & it was lowen lol. neva seen him in the longest. now im tryna do homework but i got bored so yaw.